there was a sale going on in the superdry store, so of course i was in there browsing. i was at the cash register and i was bending over to the basket under lina’s stroller to get my wallet, when i looked up and suddenly caught a glimpse of kathy walking in. shit. how awkward. i haven’t seen her for years i think. way before she and bea had broken up. i quickly turned back to the cashier and paid my amount. i turned to check if my bag was still okay, stowed away in the basket of lina’s stroller. as i turned to look down, i saw the longest pair of legs i’ve ever seen. not to be weird, but wow they were so long and slim and the nicest pale-peachy color. okay, i’m a creep. but i’ve always liked how that skin color looked. i glanced up, because right away, i knew who they belonged to. pae’s back was turned to me, but i knew it was her. i haven’t seen her since i was a kid and i’ve forgotten how tall she is. i’ve seen her pictures around all the time since i have kathy’s facebook and she always looked the petite type. very slim. but seeing her in person again, she was taaaaaaall. i grew envious of her as they walked to the back of the store and i watched even though her back was still turned to me.

i guess you can say i’ve always kind of idolized pae. pretty girl with the good looks and talent. i love her designs and works… i’m so jealous of her. long, thick hair. long, slim legs. the nicest skin you would ever see. tall, perfect nose. she’s got the talent and the life. her modeling pictures always come out gorgeous. her artworks are amazing. she just graduated from art school while working part time and still has time to have fun and party with her friends. yup. she is who i want to be. she’s achieved what i want to achieve. maybe this is a sign for me to get started on that.